I wish I could say I am ready and refreshed, but I'm just not feeling it. Now I know not to rely on my feeling or my life would be way off coarse from what God wants. BUT. Homeschooling all of the sudden seems like a daunting task. Maybe it's because I am adding a Kindergartner into the mix or maybe it's that Julian is quickly turning into a very busy baby or that I have yet to win the victory over Jojo's foolishness. I'm just not sure but I know that I don't feel ready to jump back in.
One of the very real challenge for me is teaching Jadon to read. He has been doing some tutoring this summer but we still have a long road ahead. He is profoundly dyslexic and I am just learning how to cope with that. I could write a post on this -and I will- but I am not ready yet.
My goal is to spend next week in some serious prayer and planing. I need Jesus to fill me and inspire me for another year. I need to read over my homeschooling goals and mission statement from last year and possibly get a new book to get the motivational juices flowing.
I am reading a wonderful book on prayer called The Circle Maker. It is so inspiring in so many areas of our life-- the church-- my husbands business...In fact he took a MAJOR step of faith in his business because of what I shared with him from the book(another post:). However I am having a hard time applying it to homeschooling. I am planing a fast for next week to pray specifically for this new year and for Jadon. I am not sure what to fast yet, but I know I need supernatural power and that is a byproduct of fasting. I am weak and do not "feel" able to start another year. I know it must be the power of Jesus in me to help me accomplish the important task of teaching my children.
If only it were this easy:)
So we fasted and petitioned our God about this, and he answered our prayer.Ezra 8:23
Oh a lighter note I Googled homeschool blues just for fun and literally Laughed Out Loud watching this Tim Hawkins video, nothing like good old comic relief:)