Monday, December 31, 2012

A HAPPY New Year

As I reflect on the New Year I can't help but think of this time last year. I remember anticipating 2012 and all that it would bring, specifically a new baby. I wrote this in my journal last New
Years Eve.
 I am so excited for this new year. I have always wanted back to back to babies and now God has blessed me with the desire of my heart. I am tiered from Christmas but excited for a restful winter and the preparation of our new baby. I feel this sweet little one moving around and how my heart rejoices. This baby was planned by God, chosen for our family at this time. I know God has big plans for this life growing inside of me.

I had no idea last New Years Eve that I would say good by to our son Jonathan. I had no idea that 2012 would be the most difficult year of my life, I had no idea the heart ache it would hold. I also did not know that my faith would be tested and I would come through stronger and more in love with Jesus and my family.

As I reflect on this, I realize I do not know what 2013 holds in store. Will it be a year of rejoicing and joy? In my plans another baby would join our family. However I truly believe that Jesus is the author of life and death and he knows what is best. No matter what happens I know that Jesus will be by my side. I know that I am blessed because of him. He is my all and all and carries me though the darkest storms. Jesus is good even when life is hard!

My dear sweet Jonathan, 2012 will always be your year in my heart. You lived, you were born and you went to Heaven this year. I miss you so much and how I would love to see your big sister holding you and Joseph playing with you. My heart breaks over the absence of you in our family. I close my eyes and picture you in Heaven. I see you there happy, smiling with Papa and Papaw. They love you and are so thankful for you. I imagine you are their special boy, so loved. I feel the whisper of a prayer "Don't cry mommy I am loved, I am happy".
Jesus thank you for this blessed year, it was hard but you were with me. I know you have big plans for our lives and our future. Thank you for the blessing of Jonathan, for his life and all the lessons he has taught us. I love you more everyday you are my wonderful counselor, everlasting father and so mighty to save!
"For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 
Ecclesiastes 3:11

Thursday, December 27, 2012


We has a joyful, wonderful, MERRY Christmas! Here are some highlights.
Family party
We had lots of fun with all the cousins we LOVE!

 Christmas Eve
We  baked cookies and decorated cupcakes.
Right before bed the kids were so excited :)

 Christmas Morning
Joseph was HILARIOUS, he loved opening presents and trying them out!
My sweet baby doll got a new baby doll!
Shayla loves Snow White, hummm I had no idea when I took this photo that this baby doll would inspire a hair cut and lots of mommy tears.

After presents we all sat together as I read the acts of kindness done in honor of Jonathan. I was so blessed as well as my family to receive these. It means sooooo much to me that people took time, in this very busy season to remembered my baby boy and to make me smile on Christmas. Tears of joy fell because of these letters instead of tears of sadness. Thank you my dear friends that participated it means more that you will ever know!

Christmas at Mams
Mam made Christmas super special, she is so thoughtful and sweet to us. We had fun and then a delicious Christmas dinner with only one crystal glass broken ;/
New bike fun!

The day after Christmas, to my horror Shayla cut her hair. I am pretty sure she was inspired by the Snow White doll and that we had just seen Rapunzel at Disney on ice. Rapunzel's hair gets cut in the end. I think she though like the show that her hair would magically come back :( I had to cut it off to her chin and add bangs and it's still not even. I think she looks cute but it breaks my heart I can no longer braid her hair.

 My husband so wisely reminded me that many little girls have no hair because of  very sad circumstance. I am remembering to say prayers for Daisy , Lucy and others fighting for their lives and remain thankful that I have a healthy little girl!
Christmas was a huge success! My husband said it is a month long birthday party for Jesus and man did we party :)
We were blessed, our children were blessed and we ALL BLESSED the name of the LORD! Praise God for the birth of our Savior JESUS!

“Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace among those with whom he is pleased!”
~Luke 2:14

Tuesday, December 25, 2012


Merry Christmas to all my friends and family. Your support this year has meant the world to me, THANK YOU! May you be blessed as you have been such a blessing to me!

The insert from our Christmas letter.

Merry Christmas,

I hope this letter finds everyone happy and well. 2012 was a blessed and yet very difficult year for our family. We are joyful that our trials have brought us closer to God and to each other.

At the end of January we walked the indescribable difficult path of saying goodbye to our sixth child Jonathan Anthony Papik. He was born 1-24-12 and we were blessed to spend many hours holding and loving him. Even though his life was short he is a special little boy that taught us many lessons. We talk of him every day in our home and he is so loved. I was not prepared for the difficult time of grieving that would follow his death and spent a good part of this year very sad. I do not believe that time heals all wounds, some are far to deep. However I DO believe Jesus heals all wounds and he is healing this mommy's broken heart.

 I have found a lot of comfort in the community of mommies that have lost babies. The greatest blessing of Jonathan's life has been that my eyes were opened to a suffering that many families have experienced through the sadness of an early goodbye. We recently attended a candle lighting for Jonathan, lots of families came together to share pictures and honor their babies. As I sat in the audience and listened to the quotes that the mommies spoke one scripture kept replaying in my heart.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted ~Matthew 5:4
Jesus has been so good and faithful to carry us through.

Big Jimmy had a very productive year in business. He received his Plumbing Contractor license in March. He also started a new plumbing company called, Sunset West Plumbing. I am so proud of him, he has a vision for our future and he works hard to obtain it. He still loves surfing and won first place, in his heat at a local contest. He continues to Pastor at the Venice Lighthouse church. We love the opportunity to serve God and people in this way. Jimmy is diligent to pray, write sermons and preach. He has a heart that loves people and is committed to pointing them to Christ.

Little Jimmy is in 9th grade this year. I can't believe I have a son in High school! We continue to home school but we have the blessing of being a part of a charter school that keeps all his credits and checks his work. Jimmy loves to surf and has spent many hours this year in the ocean and is competing in local contests. He recently got hired as an interne at the Venice Arts were he has taken film classes for many years. He loves to take pictures and make short movies and now he will get paid to do it! He is a BIG help to me and such a blessing.

Jesse is in 5th grade and loving it. He consumes books at a fierce rate and is wonderful at writing papers. He excels at skate boarding, dropping into 12 feet bowls doing crazy tricks. He also takes a film class and comic class. He loves to draw and can spend hours working on a picture, his attention to detail is incredible. Jesse also surfs and competes. He is a sweet big brother and loves to help with Joseph and Shayla.

Jadon is still my fun loving, active boy. He is in 2nd grade this year. His favorite subject is PE. (smile) Daddy is such a help and takes the boys to surf or skate many times a week. Jadon loves to surf and skate and did his first contest this year. He also loves to draw and play with his big brothers. Every now and then he has been caught playing with Shayla also :) He makes life happy with his silly mischief.

Shayla is a sweet little girl that loves all her brothers so much. She has enjoyed taking ballet this year. She loves playing babies and house and brings so much softness to our house full of boys.

Joseph is an active almost 2 year old. He loves dancing and making us laugh. He has a contagious joy that makes life so sweet.

I pray this next year all of you will be blessed. Whether the future holds mountains or valleys Jesus Christ is the Lord of both!

I grieve for you, Jonathan my brother; you were very dear to me. ~2 Samuel 1:26

Love the Papiks

Our family Beach photo shoot.

An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Luck 2:9-12

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Reigning Venice Surf -A -Thon Champs!

 On Saturday the big boys went to the 19th annual Venice Surf A Thon, its the longest running local surf contest in the Venice/Santa Monica (Dogtown) area. Daddy won 1st place in the Senior Men's Division and Jesse won 2nd place in the Grom division.

My husband had the opportunity to pray for the event before it began, this is not a Christian event. The coordinator and founder asked him to open the contest with a prayer, these are the words from his blog about the prayer.

(There were no waves, also know as flat!)
We gathered in a circle and Pastor Papik prayed for us. Now here is the supernatural event I will testify to a bon-e-fide spiritual miracle and I kid you not, as I looked up from prayer, a nice clean two foot wave appeared breaking cleanly left and right! As the first heat of super groms paddled out the sets continued to build with a rising tide including sets of threes!

How amazing that God answered his prayer for waves! The wave miracle was mentioned several times throughout the day.

Jesse about to get barrel!

Daddy getting his trophy!
Jesse getting his trophy!

I am so proud of all my boys! Little Jimmy is also a winner because he has a great attitude and is happy for his Brother and Dad. He showed superb sportsmanship!

Have nothing to do with irreverent, silly myths. Rather train yourself for godliness; for while bodily training is of some value, godliness is of value in every way, as it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come.
~1 Timothy 4:7-8

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Terrific Trouble!

Oh my goodness I am so busy right now! Shopping, parties, baking, wrapping, surf contest, Christmas card addressing, family and friends gatherings.

Add to that the daily chores and schooling. Oh did I mention I have a terrorizing almost two year old. As my Papaw would say "He's feelin his oats!" Now being the mommy of many that are older I know that these terrific two's come and go quickly, so I better savor them.

Some trouble I enjoyed TODAY from Joe Joe....

  • A whole box of cereal dumped on the floor and stepped on. 
  • He climbed on the counter by moving a chair and got into the fish food. The result... a seven year old wailing that his fish would die and a BIG mess. 
  • OK now I need a minute, so I put him in his crib with a sippy cup. Ten minutes later......sippy lid off and juice every where. That means another load of laundry and another big mess to clean.
  • Next he decided it was time for art. His canvas?...Himself, Shayla's doll, the wall....RED.
  • He attacked his sister whoops, I meant he wanted to wrestle.
  • Chair AGAIN to the counter this time to wash the dished, ummmm big mess. 
  • Daily he loves to  rearrange the ornaments on the tree, the breakable ones are his favorite :/
  • Last offenses before nap, he poured half a gallon of milk on the table during snack.

(Big sigh) now its nap time and I have a few free minutes to do EVERYTHING :)  How I would love a hot cup of decaf and a book, oh well, it will have to wait until 2013. Yep, Christmas is busy but I would not have it any other way. Well except to see another little brother (Jonathan) crawling around making trouble.

All this terrific trouble..... is worth it?
A THOUSAND times YES it's soooooo worth it!!!

And like Papaw always said...
"You'll never know it a hundred years from now"

Friday, December 14, 2012

A night for a princess.

Shayla got an early Christmas present this week. She got to experience Walt Disney World on ICE.  She was beyond thrilled and it was truly a magical night none of us will ever forget.

When I was little my Mamaw would take Tabitha and me to Walt Disney on Ice every year. Oh how those sweet memories came flooding back as I steeped into the enchanted ice ring. The sights and smells of childhood made my heart sing but also made me miss my Mamaw and family. 
We have been wanting to go for the last 16 years that I have lived here. It seemed almost impossible because it comes so close to Christmas. So most years I did not even mention it. My Husband knew it was a desire of my heart and at the first mention of it he said, "Yes, we should go!. We were going to just take Shayla because it was princesses themed but then Daddy decided it was a family event and we all went.
The show was incredible better that I ever remember from childhood. The city looked beautiful it was like we were in another world. There was a large Christmas tree with ice skaters around it. Beautiful lighst and sights to see. We enjoyed our self so much it truly was an evening fit for a princess.
Now she is dancing and all she talks about is ice dancing with her Daddy :)

"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones." 
~Proverbs 17:22 -
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