Thursday, June 21, 2012

What I need right now.......

Someone to cry with me.



Someone to not want to fix me.



Someone to forgive me.



Someone to apologize.



Someone to listen to the same sadness again.



Someone to say I thought of Jonathan today.



Someone to love me in spite of myself.



Someone to look past my defensiveness and see a broken heart.



Someone to send sunshine.



Someone to not look the other way at the mention of his name.



Someone to make me laugh.




Someone to give a hug.



Someone to not judge what they have never walked through.



Someone to make me feel normal.



Someone to understand that even though they have walked thorough loss we are different.




Someone to hang in there for the long haul.



Someone to say I love you.



Someone to say "it's Ok if  your struggling".



Someone to know  how I feel.



Someone to be my Hero.



Someone to pray for me.



Someone to mourn with me.


Someone to walk  beside me.
 To all of my SOMEONES.....
THANK YOU
You have love me when I did not deserve it.


“No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted.”
― Aesop

Loved people… love people
Hurt people… hurt people
Loved people
Must love
Hurt people


28 comments:

Mara said...

I could really relate to this post, as I've felt like this on many occasions. Also, I couldn't help but think about Jesus as you shared this list. He should be "that someone" who is always there for us.

HopeUnbroken said...

beautifully said, Tesha. praying for you this morning!
steph

Kallie said...

Amen sister!

Hillary said...

Someone to send you a picture of a lizard skeleton! Bwhahahahahah..... Love you sweet friend!

xoxox

Kristy said...

So true friend, so true. Glad you have found "someones" here on earth to help ease your burden and know you have the best "someone" in Jesus.

Brooke Grieder said...

Thanks for this post!!! I agree with it all. :-)

Shauna said...

I feel this way too! You wrote all the things I'm feeling right now and didn't know how to say when others ask me what can I do to help. Would you mind if I copied this post and put something like it on my blog? Crying with you today <3 <3 ((Hugs))

Elizabeth said...

hoping your day is FILLED with someone like this!! :)

Denise said...

God and I love you very much. Sending you hugs and prayers.

Deanna said...

The words you've put together, and though I've not faced a baby of mine go to Jesus, I hear every single word, breath, and the depth your heart and soul -the breaking heart.

I didn't trust God at first during a most painful season in my life -had I done so, then I could have embraced the Light that shines in darkness -it wouldn't mean that my emotions would have disappeared, but it would have meant that even in the midst of great sorrow I wouldn't have ignored His Light.

~oOo~
Knowing that we live in a fallen world, sometimes just isn't enough when those darkest hours fall over us, over & over again. But, we won’t ignore His light, even if we only see the faintest ray of His hope shinning in the darkest. And we trust by faith that He not just a faint light –but the fullness of everything we need, because the grief has a cloudiness over the eyes of our heart.
~oOo~

You make not feel like it, or see it in your life's testimony right now -But, You are a great mother, and Jonathan has the best mommy EVER. He knows it; he knows how much you love him!


It's okay Tesha if right now you feel like you can't see the days ahead that will be filled with total recovery from the agonizing pain that comes with this cross you bear. So, I, we, will be the ones to pledge in faith that it will be here --- in His timing, which is perfect and good. And in the meantime we remember that love is Patient. Patient knowing there is no timetable of how long this desolation of the soul will be before you are feeling the consolation of the soul that you long for, and we pray for.
...
...
I know this is such a long comment ... But I wanted to let you know that I 'heard' you in one of your previous posts... Something like, 'If I heal up from this sorrow then it perhaps it would mean that I'm not loving Jonathan with all the love I have for him; and that others would think that I have forgotten him -or that others would forget him too."

I had the same kind of thoughts, and as silly as they may be -my thought fed me guilt along this line....
"If I stop mourning, if the pain of 'what is' is not stirring up inside me no longer then perhaps even the LORD will believe I've given up on my dream, on the desire of my heart."

I wondered if I shared that thought of mine own, which I know was silly -yet it was a reality for me then while the cloudiness of grief blurred the eyes of my heart ... to know you're not the only one who can 'go there' while in times of hard grief.

Love in Christ :O)
You are a beautiful soul !!!!!!
~Deanna

Lucy McCracken said...

what a touching and beautiful post! We all need to be heard and to just be loved and held while we're walking through our struggles. Praying for you this morning and sending hugs your way. :)

Trennia said...

That is a powerful post.You are in my thoughts,prayers and I think of your sweet son Jonathan alot because he is my babies friend in heaven (((hugs))).

Allison said...

Sending you hugs today girl, hope it's a great day!!!

Morgan said...

*hugs* praying for lots of those "someones" to be in your life. Thinking of you and Jonathan often. I even have something for you :) I don't have time to send it now, hopefully by the weekend. Just wanted to leave you in suspense <3

brigette said...

Hugs!!! I pray for this as well!!! I feel like you are that someone for soooo many people. Bless your heart. Thanks for being there!!

Kindy Belew said...

Oh how I wish we could just sit and have a cup of coffee together and chat! Wouldn't that be nice?!? Love you friend!

Jenn said...

Oh how I know what you mean!!! I have felt the same way. HUGE (((hugs))) Tesha! Love you & praying!

ccc said...

{{hugs!!}}

Debby@Just Breathe said...

I wish I could be there in person to give you a hug and cry with you.
Always on my mind and in my prayers.

Nan & Mike said...

Thank YOU tooo sweet friend. You always have friends in us to tell you all of the above! Love to you! xoxoxo

Kim said...

I hope you find these things each and every day. You are such a great mommy and an exceptional friend to the BLM community. Wishing you much peace.

Britt said...

Tesha, I was just thinking about you today and wanted to stop by and say I was praying for you!

Sherri said...

Sending you sunshine! :)

My Vicissitude said...

Thank you! Your honesty, even in your pain is brave as well as helpful. I pray peace for you.

April said...

Don't we all...I totally agree ♥

Ashley said...

Exactly. Thanks for sharing ((hugs))

Crystal said...

Big hugs!!

Shannon said...

I believe that I have felt and thought just about everything you have written. I want you to know you do not have to be strong nor "fixed" because what is broken simply cannot be fixed. Our hope is in eternity...where we will meet Jesus and see our boys again one day. HUGS!!! I'd cry alongside with you if I lived near.

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