Today we are supposed to share a memory.
I have many memories some I wish I could forget forever. Others I will cherish and replay over and over so I never forget even the smallest detail. One memory that really stands out to me is incredibly sad but also very touching in a sweet way.
My husband and I had held Jonathan for many hours. We prayed over him, sung songs to him, talked to him and took turns holding him. We were very tired and had already made the decision that we would let them take Jonathan that night. We would be checking out in the morning and we wanted our goodbye to private, not with nurses coming in and out. So around 11:40 I asked my husband if he was ready to say goodbye and let him go. I will never forget his response with huge tears streaming down his face he said....
"We can't let him go on his Birthday."
At that moment I thought my heart might break into. My husband had slept with all of our babies on the couch in the hospital room. So he took Johnathan and laid down with him. I have a picture of him laying with all of our children on the hospital couch so I took a picture. This is one of my most treasured photos. I can see the pain on a daddy's face that is saying goodbye to his son.
The intimacy we shared in those hours with Jonathan were some of the sweetest we have ever know. I feel forever connected to the heart of my husband. In the most difficult time in our lives we had each other, all the rest of the world faded away and it was just us. Gods plan for marriage is truly beautiful.
"Haven't you read," he replied, "that at the beginning the Creator 'made them male and female,' and said, 'For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh' ? So they are no longer two, but one. Therefore what God has joined together, let man not separate."