Thursday, February 28, 2013

Joseph's First Haircut

I did haircuts for the boys this week. Joseph finally got his first REAL haircut. I have to say it was quite difficult, he had the wiggles and kept putting his hands over his hair. I got a little sad seeing his sweet curls on the floor but he ended up looking really cute.

I could not get a good picture he was so unhappy. Maybe it was because he had hair in hair eyes;)

Sweet little boy:)

For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. ~Romans 8:6 

Monday, February 25, 2013

Jadon Celabrated!

Jadon had a fun day and got a lot of wonderful gifts. We started off at church were the whole congregation sang Happy Birthday to Jadon. Daddy then asked him if he had anything to say? Jadon's response......"I hope eight is FUN"!
Love the funny little halo around his head from the candles.

Sweet boy
Next we played angry birds stars wars and army men with the new presents!

Then we headed outside to let Jadon ride his motorcycle.
 Later we headed to church than came back home and had cake:)

All your children shall be taught by the LORD, and great shall be the peace of your children.
~Isaiah 54:13 

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Happy Birthday Jadon!!

Happy Birthday to my AMAZING miracle baby boy! Eight years ago Jadon Richard was born perfectly healthy despite a grim diagnosis from doctors. We spent months of my pregnancy undergoing tests and being told Jadon had a severe brain damage from to much fluid on his brain. We were told this would affect everything about him even his ability to breath and live.

We were counseled by the top physician in our city to abort him, he would have low quality of life. 

I am so glad we believed the report of the the Lord, instead the doctors. I am so amazed that Jesus carried us through through extremely scary months leading up to his birth and then delivered us from all our fears.

We choose the name Jadon because it means, The Lord has heard my cry. NO matter what we knew Jesus heard our prayers for this baby!

 I did not understand WHY God would allow such testing in our life at he time....looking back I see it was a powerful time of preparation and drawing us near to Jesus. Daddy began pastoring Just one month after Jadon was born

One of our favorite songs from eight years ago was, Whose Report will you Believe?  We sang it all the time while I was pregnant!

Whose report will you believe
We shall believe the report of the Lord
Whose report will you believe
We shall believe the report of the Lord

His report says I am healed
His report says I am filled
His report says I am free
His report says victory

Oh how the victory was shouted when Jadon was released from the NICU with a clean bill of health. I literally held him all night singing out loud and praising God for his life.

Dear Jadon, You are my wonderful, amazing sweet son. I can't believe you are already eight. You have taught us so much about life. YOUR STORY made our family and so many others BELIEVE in MIRACLES! You are funny, bright, energetic and happy, I can not imagine life without you. You already have a great testimony, many people will hear your story and their faith will grow. God has big plans for you little buddy (as Papa called you). You are our miraculous blessing, WE LOVE YOU with all of our hearts!!!

I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him.
~1 Samuel 1:27

Friday, February 22, 2013

Favorite Picture Ideas

 I am linking with Kelly's Korner for favorite picture ideas. These are two of my favorites from our Christmas pictures. I am always looking for new ideas so I love this link up!

I love how the sweet little bear (named Jonathan bear:) from Sufficient Grace Ministries represents Jonathan.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit
~.Romans 15:13

Thursday, February 21, 2013

Princess Shelly

 Shelly our Cat missed us so much when we were at Mam's house. She has been so loving and affectionate since we got home (even letting the kids dress her up:) She is usually a moody, snappy princess.

To be honest I never really liked Cats. I love kittens but then they turn into cats;/ However I really wanted the kids to get to experience a pet cat. Shelly has grown on me and sometimes I relate to her moodiness, LOL She is a girl after all:) We need all the girls we can get in this house! Plus she has green eyes like me, well OK her her greener but I will take what I can get. None of my kids got my green eyes.....I like to think Jonathan has them:)

Shelly all dolled up in the doll carriage LOL

During our kitty photo shoot one of the kids walked in and she took her old "you better watch out" stance, so I don't think her sweet ways will last to long:)

A cat has absolute emotional honesty: human beings, for one reason or another, may hide their feelings, but a cat does not. - Ernest Hemingway

"For all forest creatures are mine already, the animals on the mountains in their thousands. I know every bird in the air, whatever moves in the fields is mine."
~PSALMS 50:10-11 

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

WWY~ Finding Hope and Healing With or Without a Rainbow

I have been wanting to do this post but with being in the hospital I have not felt up to writing. In truth I still don't feel like doing much of anything. I am really tiered and weak, I'm just not used to feeling this way. I have also been very teary lately, crying a lot.

When I first saw this post I though, Oh great I can write and really work through some old felling and let the new ones shine. My new feelings were supposed to be thankfulness and acceptance for whatever God has in our future. That is how I was feeling a couple of weeks ago....but lately..... I have been sad and doubtful. 

I just caught myself say to my Mother-in-love "If God would only give me one more baby I would be happy". OUCH that was dripping with ungratefulness. I corrected myself and said "Well I will be happy no matter what, OF COARSE"! Uuuggg

When I recently was at the OB and told her I wanted to conceive, she laughed at me. I guess to most it is comical or even selfish that a mother of five on earth and one in Heaven would WANT another. I have now decided to only share this with people that are close to me because only they seem to understand. 

I totally get what some might think.....You are so blessed! At least you have Five Healthy kids! Some people can't even have one! Be grateful for what you have!

I also know that my hearts desire is built on Love. Love for the children I have, Love for my sweet Jonathan in Heaven, Love for God who boldly proclaims Children are a blessing, Love that is still in my heart to give.

I don't know how this post will come across. I know how I originally (weeks ago) wanted it to. I wanted to sound like I was full of faith in God, completely trusting in his plan for our family. I wanted to sound confident in my future happiness no matter if it held a rainbow baby or not. I wanted to sound like I was oozing thankfulness through every pore for the blessing I have been given.

Right now even more that wanting to say all the right things, I want to be honest.

Honestly I'm scared. I'm scared I will not get a Rainbow baby, I'm scared it will cause the pain of losing Jonathan to linger and sting deeper. I'm scared of facing every month hoping for a baby, only to be let down. I'm scared I will have hurt feeling over the remarks about the future of our family. I'm scared I will question God and even get mad at him if he decides to not bless us with another baby. (I have no trepidation to write this, God already knows my fears and he is greater than them all)

I know that ultimately a new baby will not heal the Jonathan hurt in my heart, but I can't help believe it would help. I know I have lots of big kids, middle kids and little kids to love on right here on earth. I know my heart still breaks some nights in indescribable ways, longing for my baby boy. I know no matter WHAT God will continue to heal me, he is committed to my healing. And with a tears streaming down my checks I WILL say, I know that I am blessed!

What I don't know is how this will all play out in the end? Will there be a rainbow baby a few months down the road, or a few years....I just don't know. What does Gods future hold for our family? What does he have in store for my heart and healing? Right now it is hard to see. What I HAVE seen is past experiences and I know from my life that Jesus has NEVER let me down, even in the valley of the shadow of death. I do know that God is Good and has no limitations. His plan and purpose will prevail, and his plans are always good.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
~Jeremiah 29:11 

I will close on this note. I am so glad that God is God and He is in control and I am in the palm of his hand.

Shout for joy, you heavens;
rejoice, you earth;
burst into song, you mountains!
For the Lord comforts his people
and will have compassion on his afflicted ones.

 But Zion said, “The Lord has forsaken me,
the Lord has forgotten me.”

 “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
I will not forget you!

 See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me.
~Isaiah 49 13-16

Saturday, February 16, 2013

My Sweet Valentines

Valentines was a blessed fun day at our house! I was having a lot of mommy guilt for not getting the kids any valentines before surgery. So my Mother-in-love drove me to the store to get some sweets for my sweeties. They loved their little gift bags and Mam loved her See's candy and red roses we got her. Daddy got me new tennis shoes and he got a new lap top for his business. We finished the night with a delicious cake and cupcakes:) It was definitely a sweet day filled with love.

I was so wiped out from all the fun I had to rest all day Friday. This morning I woke feeling pretty good for the first time in over a week. Not picking up Joseph has proved to be a real challenge, all this sickness has really made me appreciate everyday good health.

I will praise the name of God with song, And shall magnify Him with thanksgiving
Psalm 69:30

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Home sweet sorta Home

I am sorta of home, well home from the hospital anyway (At my mother-in-loves). I had an additional surgical procedure Sunday night. I am very weak and still in quite of bit of pain. I have at least a week of pain ahead and three weeks of no lifting, not even Joseph:(

 I am so thankful for all the help and prayers I have received. I have to say a special thank you to my kids that held down the fort at mamas house. A BIG THANK YOU and I LOVE YOU to my Mother-in Love for all her care for the kids and me.

Most of all A HUGE THANK YOU to my Valentine, for being by my side in sickness and health. Oh yes and for being the LOVE of my life and making all my dreams come true.

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth
1 John 3:18 

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Surgery Update

I am still in the hospital. Surgery went well on the 7th but I woke up in a lot of pain. They kept me overnight. I went home Friday and spent one agonizing night at home.

Saturday we returned to the hospital and they admitted me for pain and to administer IV antibiotics for an infection. So we (my amazing husband/ personal nurse) are in the hospital for now. 

Thank you everyone for all the prayers and love!
How will I ever get this mess combed  out.....yikes. I guess I will add hair dresser to my husbands ever growing lists of professions.

PS Thank you to mam!!!!

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Surgery Tommorow

Tomorrow is my stone removal and stent placement surgery. I have been struggling with nervousness about being put to sleep and the pain from the stent. Prayers are much appreciated!

A few care free moments from my Childhood.
Love how my Papaw has such a look of Love for me in this picture:)

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body.
~2 Corinthians 4:7-11
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